Warning: What You Are About To Read May Shock YOU
Shhhhhhh! SHUT UP! You shouldn’t talk about it! STOP talking about it! You could ruin your coaching business if you keep discussing IT! Ha, ruin my business? My business wasn’t going anywhere anyway, I wasn’t that enthused about it anymore. The truth is I was never that enthused about it. It really wasn’t what I set out to do. I was taken off course by fear and listening to well-intentioned people who had my best interest at heart.
Don’t get me wrong, I do enjoy being a speaking coach, and helping others find their voice is rewarding. However, before I started my business I joined a Toastmasters club so that I could develop my public speaking skills. I had a story I felt I must share. I was driven by an invisible force that still keeps pushing me to speak and share my story.
The intensity of this force keeps me awake at nights. My mind cannot rest because the power of this mysterious influence is so strong it flows through my veins, awakening me and pulsing through my very being, pushing me and pushing me to speak up. There are no intelligible words, yet it seems that over and over it is telling me “Rena this is your Why, your Purpose you MUST do this.”
The more I speak out and share my story, the more worried family and friends become for me. Again, inadvertently by well-intentioned people, I am being silenced once again. Childhood sexual abuse is not a pleasant conversation. I get that! It’s not a subject to be taken lightly and I understand how uncomfortable it is for many.
These well intentioned folks are afraid for me and, honestly, I believe they want to protect me from judgment and ridicule from others. In actuality they are the ones passing judgement and hurting me by trying to silence my WHY, my purpose to speak out.
As a child I was threatened to remain silent. Now, as an adult I am being threatened again to remain silent by many telling me that I will ruin my business if I talk about it. In essence, I believe they are saying that no one would want to work with a survivor of childhood sexual abuse. If I continue to talk about it I will mark myself to wear a letter just as damning, if not more so, similar to the scarlet letter for a crime I did not commit.
I am no longer a victim of childhood sexual abuse, and I am not merely a survivor of it either. I have forgiven, and I am an empowered thriving woman who has overcome much to get to where I am today. This compelling force is screaming through my being to speak out and to continue sharing my story so that other victims and survivors know that they too can thrive and live a happy healthy life if they choose too. I encourage them to join my “NO MORE Shame Campaign” You Deserve to live the life you want! Get Help, Get Healed, and Get Happy. There is a rewarding life after childhood sexual abuse. It is not only possible it is our God given right to live in Joy and Peace. This is my WHY.
I take full responsibility for allowing fear and the advice of well-intentioned folks to keep me silent. I am not sure what the end result of my WHY looks like, I just know if I do not pursue it I will remain tormented and unfulfilled. How dare I not share my WHY when I know damn well it will and has helped others.
Allowing this magical beautiful force to influence me, it’s as if I am putting a puzzle together without the picture to guide me to place the pieces. I am so determined to complete the picture, and a huge piece is sharing my story to inspire others how they too can stop wishing for a better life and start living an extraordinary life no matter what they’ve been through! This is my WHY!
Pursuing your WHY should be exciting and a bit scary. That’s a good thing! A friend of mine, Dianne Allen, owner of www.visionsapplied.com recently told me that fear is getting me ready for something great. She is right! Don’t fear FEAR because it is getting you ready for something great. Please don’t allow it to silence your WHY.
“Yes fear will challenge you, but I promise Regret will haunt you!”
Rena Romano – Author | Speaker | Coach